"To widow an idol like Jeonghan is to recognise his beauty while competing with those who are desiring him at the same time. There’s that tension again: he is idolised and victimised by exposure, so I must have him to protect him. He is out of reach but technically available, so I want to have him but I can’t." I have never seen this articulated before but it really resonated with me.
I‘m so glad! Tried to decipher that fleeting inkling of why people like RP can appeal to me and thought it might have been a stretch. But I do think a lot of practices in fandom came from mindsets that can be traced back to that same kind of tension of wanting/not having, knowing/unknowing, owning/destroying etc.
"To widow an idol like Jeonghan is to recognise his beauty while competing with those who are desiring him at the same time. There’s that tension again: he is idolised and victimised by exposure, so I must have him to protect him. He is out of reach but technically available, so I want to have him but I can’t." I have never seen this articulated before but it really resonated with me.
I‘m so glad! Tried to decipher that fleeting inkling of why people like RP can appeal to me and thought it might have been a stretch. But I do think a lot of practices in fandom came from mindsets that can be traced back to that same kind of tension of wanting/not having, knowing/unknowing, owning/destroying etc.